The Day My Hard Disk Died

We have our own ways to keep our memories. Sometimes, in diaries or journals, in our phones, or on Social Media. But most of us, more often then not, save those memories on hard media or Flash Drives and Hard Drives.

Everyone who knows me, know how important my files are, to me and my business. I have to admit, it's about to be a month and I still remember it like it was just hours ago.

So here's a little a snippet of what happened:

My super-close friend, who is like a sister to me, held her 18th birthday last April 15, 2018. I was put in charge of the event. So I hustled to get things done, even though firstly, we were working on a tight schedule and on a very, tight budget. We had to adjust this and that, just so we can fit it all in a very small, small monetary budget.

So there I was, in a dilemma on how to work around it. There were a few hisses and barks, but we got over it.

So, I was in charge of:

- Layouting the Tarps
- Video Presentation
- Musicality
- Over-all Aestethics of the Venue
- Coordination of the Programme
- Invitations

...just to name a few.

The day finally arrived and everything was set. Until right before the event finished, I passed out due to fatigue. I just came out of the hospital so I was still coping up. Anyways, I passed out.

Many hands helped in bringing me to the nearest hospital. Including the parents of one of my staff. They were also the ones in charge of the sound system. They took me to the hospital and my team decided to pack up, in a frantic rush, to see me in the hospital.

This particular person, 'accidentally' dropped my hard disk and did not tell me when we talked the day after the event. And worse of all, I had to pass some songs I created for another project, which cancelled, by the way, because the files I needed to sumbit were in the hard drive. Now the client does not want me to do any songs anymore, which was my auxillary income.

The hard disk was put on top of the laptop, then was carried. If one had common sense, why in the name of all that is holy, would you put a hard disk on a slippery surface, drop it and not even talk about it. (She did not PM me that the hard disk slipped, and that she's sorry. I would have let is pass...)

I plugged in my External HDD and it was not working. I tried everything I could but, to no avail. Professional recovery costs, 12k minimum. I don't even have money for rent or utilities, even food! (Yes she did offer to split the cost of the hard disk, but seeing how "mapanumbat" these people were, THANK GOD I did not accept the offer).

The person who dropped it, said and I quote and rebutt:

"I am just a teenager"
- You're 18. You're considered an adult.

"It's your fault you got sick because you abused yourself..."
- And what exactly does that have to do with my hard disk?

"We were just concerned... and I feel really bad..."
- So? Pay up! I fucking lost projects because of your negligence! It's your fucking fault!

And here comes the father to the rescue...

"You should be more responsible."
- I passed out! What do you want me to do, pack-up while I convulse?

"She provided you a lot of help and you should be greatful..."
- THERE IT IS. The one reason I did not accept your offer initially. Guilt trip. So I am the one in debt? What about the fact that your daughter's negligence had cost me bigger than that of a new replacemeny disk? OWN THE FUCK UP!

That's the matter with you people! You can't even say "I am sorry..." or OWN up, unless someone tells you to.

I lost 60% of my life. You cannot blame me. That was my source of income. And the only way I will shut up is:

1. Replace my hard disk.
2. Recover at least 80% of my files.
3. Get out of my life.

I'm sorry if did not end at a good note. It's totally nerve wrecking! If only people were more responsible with their actions and not making excuses to steer away from the facts! I would have remained quiet, but after those messages I recieved? I will fight for my rights and for what is right. Those files were priceless! You cannot replace it with all you money in the bank! That's what's wrong with rich people. MONEY TALKS.

Battling With Multiple Sicknesses

Hi! Vernz here. I don't usually blog everyday but I want to do so now because I want to make sure that every step of this battle, I could document and I could make use of my vacant time to raise awareness. 

First, I am currently battling with vasovagal syncope, a sickness that makes the body sensitive to pain and stress, that to cope, it rushes the heart's pumping the  abruptly slows down making the brain lose blood supply causing loss of consciousness. Basically, it may be a  stress-related condition with no medicine or direct cure.

I am also treating the small lumps found in my lungs which if left untreated, may become tuberculosis or progress to cancer. Good news is, it is not contagious and it is detected early and very easy to treat. Sputum examination says it is not coontagious. So those who smoke, or are frequently exposed to smoke and don't take vitamins? Beware! Please have it checked.

I also have a very weak immune system that makes me susceptible to viral diseases. I am the one who should be avoiding human contact because I easily get sick, not the other way around. The food, the environment, and many other factors contribute to what we call "factors to take care of".

Due to the fact that my immune system is being attacked right now, there are two things found in my colon during colonoscopy and fecalysis. First, there's a bacterial infection found in the stool sample called cryptospirosis. Second, the lining of my colon has polyps, (very small, but they extracted and performed biopsy), which we are hoping is not cancerous and is treatable. I may have colitis (swelling of the colon) or IBD (Inflammatory Bowel Disease). We still have to hope or pray...

So right now, I need to rest. I need to drink multiple medications. I need to think more about positive things and stress is not one of them. So along with this post, I need to address also, someone who is discriminating me.

I will do it in taglish so that she will understand. I meant to post this on Facebook or Instagram but I decided to blog it instead...

"Pasensya na po sa mga makakabasa nito. Hindi ko na kasi kaya. Bawal na bawal akong mastress. Shoutout po pala sa taong di na nga muna nagtanong, nagmarunong at hindi pa nakuntento, nanghusga pa. Si Lord na po ang bahala sa iyo. Hindi ko kailangan ipagtanggol ang sarili ko dahil una, hindi naman kita kaanu-ano. Inexpect ko lang na mauunawaan mo ang kalagayan ko pero ayun... iba pa din ang ipinaramdam mo sa akin --- hinusgahan mo agad ako. Pasensya na ulit ha? Perfect ka po kasi. Pero no worries! Mailabas ko lang ito, okay na ako.

Yung tipong di pa ako nakakatulog ng maayos, yung mga sinabi mo sa akin hindi ko pa din matanggap. Sana naman, sa edad mo na iyan, makaramdam ka naman.

Kung makarating man ito sa iyo, sana maging masaya ka at mahanap mo na sana ang kapayapaan ng isip at puso. Pagpalain ka po at Hari nawa ay hindi mangyari sa iyo, sa anak mo o sa sinuman sa iyong pamilya ang nangyari sa akin. Kasi kung talagang marunong ka umunawa sa paligid mo, hindi ka dapat ganiyan magsalita at hindi ka dapat nanghuhusga ng kapwa mo. Hindi kita kamumuhian. Pero hindi na rin kita ituturing na magandang bahagi ng buhay ko. Kumbaga sa quotes eh, push away the negativity and breathe in the positivity.

Ok na ako. Ang mahalaga, nai-voice out ko na. Kailangan ko na lang munang magpalakas at nang makabalik na sa trabaho. Move on na po tayo mga kapatid! :)"

Please don't discriminate without awareness. You do not know what people are going through just to get well.

That's it for today! I will be posting, if not frequently, but enough to bring my thoughts forward! I hope you enjoy you Feb-ibig month! God loves us all! Keep the faith y'all!