A Train of Thought

A Train of Thought

by Vernon Andrew Reyes

So here I am, writing my thoughts on how people can be so insensitive. I cannot understand how many of us are keen on keeping the tsismosa attitude. Along with the tsismosa attitude is the crab-mentality trait that many Filipinos possess.

Worst part is, you won't find these crabs among many of your friends. You will find them among your relatives.

Now I do not wish to hate on these people. I am simply asking: "Why?"

Why do we have to be so dense, that instead of wishing someone well or giving them words of encouragement, we hear criticisms. Honestly, the critics are not even half worth of your while. I will gladly listen to critics who either:

• Helped me in my times of true need and did not ignore me.
• Those who treated me well.
• The people who gave me a chance to prove myself and not TYPECAST me into who I was.
• Those who shielded me from controversy and not started one.
• Someone who is continuing to help me in some way.

I am basically in awe becauseinstead of being able to rest and have peace of mind, here I am, needing to explain myself, when all I was asking for is to get well and move on with my life. Sorry for being forward but I am tired... I am tired of being tried all of the time. I am sick and I am tired of being pulled around by the hamstrings.

There is also a difference between wall posts and private messages. I did not force you to drive by my wall. You can unfriend me anytime. This is so stupid because instead of being able to rest without prejudice, here I am blogging random thoughts to someone who has been a critic instead of being a human who understands.

Who, in the right state of mind, will ask:

"Bakit palagi kang nao-ospital?"

If I had known why I am feeling the pain and why my body is like this, I would not spend time in a hospital. I will not spend money on medicine, nor doctors just because. Who wants to be in a tight space, being experimented on, just so they can practice on you?

If I were to answer this seemingly rhetorical question in a philosophical way...

Kung alam ko kung bakit palagi akong nagkakasakit, eh di sana hindi ako nagpapa-ospital palagi. Sana naging doktor ako para masagot ko yang tanong na iyan.

ARE YOU DENSE, INSENSITIVE AND STUPID?

To be honest, hindi ka na nga nakatulong, nakaka-stress ka pa. I would have kept quiet and moved on but not this time. I am human too and I deserve better. Starting today, I will unfriend and block those people who are treating me like a piece of crap. I do not deserve this kind of stress, reading a comment which is super insensitive.

I finally got that off my chest. If you have issues, PM me. Doon tayo magtuos.